Random Thoughts
In recent years I have
noticed a number of trends concerning this website. I’m going to mention two of
those here, as I noticed them again as I began writing my college basketball
tournament prediction entries.
The first trend is one
that I’ve mentioned many times, and that is that it’s become more and more
difficult for me to write lengthy commentaries. I always go back and see what I
did the year before and I’m often amazed at how much detail I included. That
was certainly the case when I looked at my tournament prediction entries from
last year.
The other trend is one
that I haven’t mentioned as often, and that is that when I look at the previous
year’s entry I often realize that I made a change which I have completely
forgotten about. That was the case this year with the NCAA Tournament Play-In Games
entry.
I was sitting there
thinking how annoying it was that I had to make all of my picks for the NCAA
Tournament Monday night, including the 4 play-in games, even though the
tournament really doesn’t start until Thursday. I was thinking to myself, “You
know, I may have to just bite the bullet and separate out the first four games
this year.” I was pleasantly surprised when I went back and looked and realized
that I’d already taken that step last year.
But having completely
forgotten about such a key change made me a bit sad and I did long for the days
when writing this blog felt both fun and meaningful. I don’t mean to hurt the
feelings of my imaginary readers. This blog is still fun and it does mean
something to me or else I wouldn’t still do it. But far too often I feel as
though writing is a chore. It could all be in my head, but I don’t feel as if I’m
getting better as a writer. On the contrary, I feel as if writing is become
more and more difficult.
In reality, I know that
there is almost no chance of this blog ever helping me get a job covering
sports. Thus, if I’m not improving, and I’m not really having much fun, it
really does feel like a waste of time to continue this blog. In fact, it may be
more accurate to say that it’s worse than a waste of time, because I also lose
sleep and use up certain resources to maintain the blog. And yet for some
reason I really can’t even consider not doing this blog.
Before I had this blog
I used to write hundreds of pages a week just for the hell of it. That would
never happen now. I probably wouldn’t write at all if I didn’t have this
website. I guess in my mind I have just not wanted to let this thing go. I’ve
been determined to keep writing, even if only for myself and the imaginary
readers. I don’t know. I just don’t want to give up on this.
So this is kind of a
weird intro to the best time of the year. But I couldn’t help it. It just sort
of came out.
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